taking pills

before i go into my story, you should just watch this 6 second video.


ok well now that you watched a human bicycle, you will now hear the story of why i take the pills the way i do.
so, when i take a pill i take a big drink of water, and before i swallow it, i tip my head back and drop the pill in, unlike some people who put the pill in their mouth and take a sip of water. my family, well mostly my dad, always laughs at the way i do it. my response is always "it gets stuck in my throat if i don't!" to which my dad laughs. and I'm here to say, i have evidence!!!

so i just got my wisdom teeth out a few weeks ago. along with the pain killers, they gave me an antibiotic prescription that i had to take every day until it was over. just try to imagine this....

it was late at night and i needed to take the antibiotic, which was in a little red and white capsule. i didn't really feel like going out to the kitchen to get a cup of water, so i just got my hand and got a little bit of water from the sink. i then took the pill, and of course i felt like it was stuck in my throat because i didn't have enough water, but i just thought it was in my mind. so i kept on getting ready for bed. and then i coughed. when i coughed i looked in the mirror and a huge cloud of smoke came from my mouth. a huge, menacing looking cloud of white smoke just appeared out of my mouth. i was so shocked!!! and then in the 2 seconds it took for me to get over the shock of what just happened, i tasted the most horrifying taste in my life. worse than i can even imagine. in fact, i can't recall how it tasted, now that this even has passed, i just remember the horrible, horrible taste. I'm not exaggerating even a little bit. it tasted like a sewer had exploded, or a nasty garbage truck crashed into my mouth (it goes without saying that all garbage trucks are nasty, i just wanted to emphasize that fact). i started spitting and coughing and frantically wiping my tongue with my hand, and making super dramatic disgusted faces. i cupped my hands and got as much water as i could possibly hold from the sink and drank it in 2 seconds. To no avail, the horrific taste remained. so i ran, sprinted actually, into the kitchen and grabbed a million soda crackers and ate them as fast as i could. luckily it helped. once the nasty taste was only a remnant of a horrible memory, i started cracking up. why you might ask? because i kept picturing that cloud erupting from my throat and i replayed the look of surprise on my face and laughed every time.

its safe to say I'm sticking to the way i take my pills.

love

sometimes i see people in love and I'm annoyed, like i think to myself, "you can't seriously be acting that way naturally" and then sometimes i read about love and it is beautiful. like in jane eyre. oh my gosh that book makes me want an exciting dating life. "I sometimes have a queer feeling with regard to you--especially when you are near me, as now: it is as if I had a string somewhere under my left ribs, tightly and inextricably knotted to a similar string situated in the corresponding quarter of your little frame. And if that boisterous channel, and two hundred miles or so of land come broad between us, I am afraid that cord of communion will be snapt; and then I've a nervous notion I should take to bleeding inwardly."  i sigh inside. i hope i will never be one of those annoying couples. actually i vow that i never will. thats all.

random mutterings of my boring life and a whole lotta webcam pics

1. my mom is a doll and is coming all the way from california to save me from the evil after effects of getting my wisdom teeth removed (i honestly can't think about it because I'm scared to death. and i don't care how many people tell me it will be fine, I'm scared i will somehow die of horrendous complications and i can't stop talking about my dang teeth because it won't leave my mind) so i need to be cleaning my room for my mom...but as we all know cleaning is my least favorite thing ever so I'm avoiding it. hence blog post.

2. i got locked out of my house the other day. i was starving and sleepy and ready to hammer in the windows and get cut to pieces by the glass as long as it meant i could lay in my bed and eat some macaroni and cheese. but instead i took photo booth pictures until my blessed computer died on me. evidence....

who doesn't love a little pop art. 

my only company was lady bugs scooting on by

yes, i did take a picture of my clover tongue. whats it to you

ok. after 2 hours i really was wondering if i would have to spend the rest of my life outside under my window talking to bugs. it was a sad moment

i bet you thought i was behind a beautiful scene of clouds. don't be fooled.

3. i carved a pumpkin. a nerdy little pumpkin. it was pretty fitting because i was being super nerd-like carving a pumpkin all by myself. no one around me, or even in my house. laughing at my own jokes as i carved my little guy. don't worry, i realize how lame that sounds.

i even had to take a picture of myself with the pumpkin by myself...because no one was around. i felt like having a transcendentalist moment...

4. I'm obsessed with my cup i made. well correction, my sister made it because i was to scared to do it by myself. its cut from a wine bottle, and i sanded the edges. i can't drink out of any other cups now. my mind tells me all other water from any other drinking devise tastes bad. 

5. I'm almost done with my mission papers and I'm sooo stinking excited! only a few little things left to take care of. including a big thing called a scary doctors appointment i don't want to do. but i can't wait, I'm so excited! 

6. i think its time i started cleaning and sleeping. momma will be here before i know it :)

“No matter how many plans you make or how much in control you are, life is always winging it.” ― Carroll Bryant

i never really thought i was spontaneous. 

 it just wasn't a thought that occurred to me. 

 but I've realized lately that i can be. 

 example one. 

one day i was sitting on Facebook (like always) and a friend posted a status saying that the company she worked for needed 2 more girls to come to Ukraine for 6 weeks and teach at an English camp because some people dropped out. so i thought to myself "ya that would be awesome!" so i left a week later to go to Ukraine. i had never left the country before, and i so unprepared, but i just thought it would be awesome, so i did it. i bought my plane ticket and was sitting on a not so comfy seat miles up in the air 6 days later. 

 example 2.

 i needed a new computer, so i walked in to the buy bookstore computer section, saw a nice pretty macbook pro and said "i want that" so 5 minutes later the nice guy behind the counter handed me my box and i was out the door. ill admit, that doesn't sound very spontaneous at all. but it seemed pretty spur of the moment to me haha :) spontaneity makes life a little more exciting, I've never been one for plans anyway. so here are the clique pictures you just have to take on mac.

the second i got my computer started i just had to open up that pretty little photo booth

 sorry for the picture overload of myself...

i promise I'm not egocentric.

 i just happen to really like my mac. 

 and really like taking pictures...of myself haha

 but trust me, i fully realize the only people who want to look at endless supply of pictures of me are my sisters and mom (if that)

things lately...

ever since i reactivated my facebook, i haven't blogged much at all. pretty much zero. i kinda miss it you know? getting to write down what i'm thinking at the moment never really imagining anyone reading it; but the idea of your thoughts being out in the open able for anyone to read (even though they probably wont) is kind of refreshing. i tend to keep my thoughts locked tightly in my head and only tell people when they ask. so this is like the complete opposite.
sometimes i feel like i'm failing at life. honestly. i just was thinking that to myself about 2 seconds ago. i am putting about zero effort into school right now, and the only reason is because i don't want to. i have no idea what i'm going to do for my major, and i swear if i hear one more person say to me "oh don't worry. that's totally ok. its better to find what you like to do then do something find out you hate it and your stuck. its completely normal" i will scream. i think that conversation is programmed into every single college persons head just to try to make those of us who are completely lost feel a little better. well it doesn't. its about time i figure out what the heck i'm doing. just an all over sense of failing is what i'm feeling right about now as the semester dwindles to a close. i look back and realize how many mistakes i made and the millions of things i could have done better. but i'm so past caring at this moment. and the only thing i want more than this semester to be over is to be home, with my family, in my house. i close my eyes and picture my cozy little home and spending hours with my family and my heart longs for it. i want to jump up from my chair, run to my car and drive the 8 hours until i'm back home in glendora and i'm away from this place and this semester. alas...i cant. sad right??
but, even though i wont be going home for spring, i know it will be great staying in provo. it makes me a little bit sad (actually more than a little), but really excited. and eventually (or 15 days) this semester will be over, and whats done is done. it will be a whole new experience being here for summer, living on my own not going to school, and i'm looking forward to it. whatever the summer has to offer, i am ready for it.