Day 15.

"Put your iPod on shuffle; first 10 songs that play."

now this day creates just a little problem. i do not actually OWN an ipod. i know, i know, a human being who doesn't own an ipod?! i fully understand that this is rare, and that lately it seems normal for a first grader to won some type of music playing device. i don't have any type of mp3 player, although i have in the past. my mom gave me one for Christmas 2 years ago, ((i think it was a sansa brand?)) but i broke it...not only did i break it once, but twice. the first time it was within the warranty time, so i got a new one, then about 2 months later it got smashed. technology seems to fail me constantly. so instead i will play my lovely, well listened to playlist and put them on shuffle :] here it goes...

1. "A-Punk" -Vampire weekend
2. "Naive"- The Kooks
3. "Just Friends"- Jason Reeves
4. "Never Know" -Jack Johnson
5. "I like the ones who" -Austin Gibbs
6. "The window song" -The Kooks
7. "the way i am" -Ingrid Michaelson
8. "Always where i need to be" -The Kooks
9. "Everything" -Michael Buble
10."Better together" -Jack Johnson

basically this is a perfect little list of my favorites :]

Day 14.

"A picture of you and your family."



the whole fam :] possibly my favorite picture ever. also happens to be my desktop background.



the ladies of the family. so...everyone but my dad, and matt. p.s. my mom is the best mother known to mankind! she is literally the BEST



with our parps :] i realize how much i love my dad now that i'm away from the house.



my bestest friends in the whole wide world. and the world is pretty wide in case you didn't notice.

so basically i LOVE my family more than anything in the whole entire world, and im really glad that families are forever, because this lifetime is just not long enough to <3 them.

on a side note, im going to be up very late tonight, and have a super busy schedual for tomorrow...as in i literally have every single minute planned out and filled up until about 8:30, including 2 midterms which i honestly dont know what to expect from them. fun day ahead...not.

Day 13.

"A letter to someone who has hurt you recently."

so ill admit, i have been hurt recently, but i'm really trying to ignore it all, and i do not like telling people when they've hurt me (which i know is not a good attribute, but i don't care, i just hate it). and think especially in this case the person would not realize they have done anything wrong and it would cause more problems then it would solve.

so anyway, i took my first midterm today. it was Book of Mormon, and i got a 97, so i was really happy. i finally did my part, and actually studied and prepared, so even if i had done bad i would have felt proud of myself. lately its almost impossible for me to do my homework and studying, i don't know why i just cant force myself. but i did my part this time.

i'm really exhausted lately, i just done with school. i cant wait to be back home and spend the whole summer with my sisters and best friend...its going to be amazing :]

adventures in playland

so i'm purposefully avoiding day 13, because i don't like the topic. in fact i'm dreading it, so instead ill write about a fun little adventure i had yesterday...in McDonald's play-place. so i was watching my cousin Stacey's 2 little kids for about an hour while she had class. her kids are adorable, and the calmest little things ever! so since it was only for an hour and a half, we just went to McDonald's so she could play on the play-place and eat, then we could go back to Stacey's class. so, number one, i got to use Stacey's car, which is the same kind of car i had back home. let me just say, it was AMAZING to be able to drive again :] even though i still don't know Provo's streets well, it was fun :] so when we got to the play-place, Kaylee ran right to the stairs and started exploring...only problem, you know that thing, where there is alternating platforms to get into the slide and you have to climb up them almost like stairs? well, she was to short to reach the second one. so she just stood there, really wanting to get up. after about 10 minutes, with no other kids helping i knew there was only one choice...for me to climb in there. wow, can i just see those things are way more fun when you are 5?! luckily after that first time, this cute little girl and later a different boy kept helping her up so i didn't have to do that again!! haha! but, this just reminded me of a situation i had when i was little. so picture this, me, about the age of 6 (i'm totally guessing because i don't remember) on a little trip to McDonald's with just me and my grandma Clark. me being the little adventurer i was ran right up inside and then got lost. yes i know you may be thinking "how in the world can you get lost in a plastic playground?!" well let me tell you, i can get lost anywhere, no matter how small. i guess my directional downfalls didn't start when i got my licence. so of course, i started crying and my poor old grandma had to come save me. at least i think it was her who came and got me, hahah. all i remember is that horrible panicked feeling i have come to hate. and thats my story folks. haha

Day 12.

"How you found out about Blogs and why you made one."

can first just start out by saying that i now am obsessed with my blog?? it happened just yesterday, and i had this strong urge to make a header and and vamp it up, and now i'm officially obsessed haha :] but back to day 12...

so i first found out about blogs through my sister lauren, just like i found out about myspace (wayyy back in the day when i was 12 and had to lie about being 16) and facebook (way back when you had to be a college student to join, and i thought she was super cool for having one). in fact i specifically remember her making a blog, and at first she was super good about updating it, and became a blog stalker to the extreme :] but now that she has a family of her own, and her own little business, and her other blog (laurenskousen.com)to keep up with, she doesn't really update as often. But i got one, first of all because i wanted to be like my other sisters, and second of because i really like the idea of blogs. i have always loved writing ((but please oh please don't think i write the quality of my blog posts. i swear to you, i don't even read these things over before i press publish...and i just quickly write things without any thought. in fact, it kinda bothers me when people try to make their posts sound like they came out of a novel or something, and try to make them sound flowery and 'good quality' writing...is that weird?))and for me, its a way of saying what i feel without speaking it. i'm not much into speaking my thoughts, just writing them down. so a blog seemed perfect right? well it turns out, i'm not a very good blogger. up until this point, i would weeks if not months before writing another post, but luckily no one cares :] in fact, i'm pretty sure about 2 people will ever read this...including me! hahaha. anyway...i'm glad my sister introduced to me this side of the cyberphere so very long ago, and i'm glad i am now part of it :]

Day 11.

"Another picture of you and your friends."

so since the last time i had this little prompt, i posted a picture of me and my sister, because they will always be my best friends :] but this time, ill put up some pictures of other people i love with all my heart, and couldn't live without. drum-roll please....

JENNA!!!! this girl is my favorite person ever! it all started freshman year, i don't know exactly how we started being best friends, but all i can say is that i'm glad we did :] now that we are separated by several hours and i was thrown into a place whee i didn't know anyone, i can truly say, i will never find a friend like jenna :D i love you bestie! miss you tons



EMILY! it's really strange, we come from the same city, but were never close until we both moved up here to Utah. now i consider her one of my closest friends :] she is amazing, and i'm lucky to call her my friend! love you em!



CAMERON! this summer, we became super close!! this kid makes me laugh and smile all the time, and honestly what more can you ask for in a friend?! this summer was full of tons of memories i will never forget, and just about all of them included cameron, and im so happy now we such great friends! ill miss you tons over the next 2 years!!



JEFF! we have had so many interesting conversations at lunch, and the JJJ club has had endless laughs :] he is an amazing friend, and im super glad we connected. i think it all started when we sat at the same math table in lincolns, and he sat with us at lunch, let me just say, im really glad he wandered over to our wall :]




MY ROOMIE STEPHANIE!!! fate brought us together :] im really glad that we met, because i have loved our conversations till 4 o'clock in the morning, our hilarious inside jokes, and our monopoly deal tournament!! love you steph!!



i am truly blessed for all the amazing people i have been given in my life! i love them all and everyone has effected my life in so many different ways! if i have ever been lucky enough to call you my friend, thank you so much for everything you have done for me in my life! i love you!!!!!!!!

Day 10.

Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyper, mad.

hmm... i have a big list of songs, but not necessarily connected to certain emotions. i like listening to music i like, no matter how i feel. i guess that when i'm 'hyper' i like to listen to the Kooks, who i am officially obsessed with, or Taylor swift because she makes me want to scream the lyrics at the top of my lungs and dance to myself. Michael Buble makes me happy when i'm sad, and Jack Johnson calms me down when i'm upset. if i'm missing a certain person i listen to music i connect to them, like Justin Beiber when i miss my sister, or the Maine when i miss my bestest friend :D Ingrid Michaelson is perfect for any occasion and Joshua Radin never gets old. there is this website called grooveshark, and i have 2 playlists on there that i have listened to so many times i cant count. one is called "my happy songs" and it is filled with tons of songs that just make me smile, no matter how i feel, and one called "move to the groove" (haha i know its a lame title, don't judge) that is just vampire weekend, the kooks, fun., and the wombats. but my ultimate favorite songs are "better together"-Jack Johnson "you and i"- Ingrid Michaelson and "I'd rather be with you"- Joshua Radin. they might as well be the soundtrack to my life.

MTC

I've always been fascinated by missionary work, and love sharing the gospel of Christ in the little ways i can. but as I've been here at byu Provo i have had the amazing opportunity to volunteer at the MTC. my roommate and i used to go every Friday, but after Christmas break we stopped going. but for the last 2 weeks i have started it up again. so every Friday at 2:45 i now head up and take the 25 minute walk to the MTC. just the walk is in itself a nice break from the daily routines of life. i get to clear my mind and think about my life, and let my mind wander and think about the most random things. the cool winter-turning-spring weather makes me amazingly happy, and i just enjoy the silence and smile the whole way to the MTC. the last 2 weeks i have worked with the same pair of missionaries, and they are amazing. it is such an interesting, and very spiritual experience, to pretend to be someone who has never heard the good news of the gospel. to experience it through an investigators eyes, and to really think about how it effects my life and truly what i think about the main principles of our church. after explaining multiple concepts to me, and after every verse they sit and ask me, "so what do you think about this?" or "how does this make you feel?" i love it. i have to think about how i would think about it if i had just heard it for the first time. ill admit, it is very difficult. because i have heard these lessons multiple times throughout my life, its really hard to pretend like i haven't. but thats what i love, i look at these truths as if i have never heard them, and through doing that, i get to reevaluate what i think about them, and ask myself if i would believe in them, and if i do believe in them now. i have also gotten to the point in the lessons that they are now asking me about baptism and explaining the importance of following Christ and being baptized. for me, i feel as if i am committing to be baptized all over again, as if i am rededicating my life to take his name upon me and live as if i have just taken that commitment upon myself. its truly amazing. i am so grateful for these people, who give up 2 years of their live to share this truly beautiful and simple plan. they bring people to Him and allow them to live in the celestial kingdom with our Heavenly Father again. i am so grateful to be able to help the work in any way, as small as it may be.

Day 9.

"Something you're proud of in the past few days"

well im really bad at wasting my time. i do things that are pointless when i could be doing something useful, so these past few days i have been reading the Ensign when i have free time. i have a few issues sitting on my desk that i havnt touched, so i finally got through december, so only a few more months to go ;] but i really notice a difference, and realize how much i could be doing in my free time. so im definetely going to keep it up.

yes, i'm obsessed.

so for those of you who dont know, i love ingrid michaelsons music!!!! could listen to it all day and still got sick of her. so she had this new song out called parachute, which i am in love with. but she just came out with the new video for it!!! ahhhh its amazing and im totally obsessed with it. so for those of you who dont follow her and know the day she comes out with it, here it is :] please watch it and fall in love with it as well!

Day 8.

"Short term goals for this month and why"

so, me and my friend Emily came up with this brilliant plan last night as we were walking the indoor track. we said "hey lets wake up at least 3 times a week and come her at 5:30 in the morning! we will walk or jog for an hour, and then go on with the rest of our day" we both got pretty excited, and super motivated. so this morning i set my alarm for 5:15, a time of day i haven't seen since my seminary days. but i was determined, so i did it. now, todays plan didnt work out so effectively because emily accidentally fell asleep on the floor while studying...but that does not mean it wont happen every other day! we WILL accomplish this goal, and we WILL be amazing :] so dont fret, when thursday morning comes around, Jonni and Emily will be putting on their running shoes and heading over to the Smith Field house at 5:30 in the morning. its very exciting news!


(the outside of where will be so very early in the morning)


(the inside, for those of you who wanted a visual picture of the track)

Day 7.

"A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you"

this is kinda hard, since there are multiple people and things that have had an impact on my life. i think everyone i've even been close to has effected my life and made me who i am. i don't become close to many people, because i like having just those few people i love most close to me, but because of this the people i do let in really impact my life, and shape me for the better. But no matter who i have in my life, i can always one hundred percent count on my Savior. ever since i've been at college i have really been depending on this relationship and constantly trying to improve myself. i have a lot to work on, and i have some really bad weeks where i am not nearly as close to Him as i should be, but the great thing is i can always come back. This last week has been one of my fantastic weeks, honestly probably the closest i've felt to Christ my whole experience at college. And because of this, i truly can see the ability that Christ and my Heavenly Father have to change not only me, but everyone around me. I love with all my heart Jesus the Christ, and i know that i am never happier than when i submit myself to His will and lean on Him with everything i have.

Day 6.

"your favorite superhero and why"




so im not a big super hero fan. i like watching the comic book movies and stuff, like batman and spiderman and what not, but i dont really the actual super heroes. ive never had a desire to be one of them, or even think of them much. but wizards...thats a different story. im obsessed, and whenever i read harry potter i will literally have dreams about being one of them, and im constantly wishing it could all be real and i could move to Hogwarts.and it just so happens that Luna is my favorite :] i love her quirky attributes and her simple way of seeing things.

Day 5.

since i'm way behind and super bored, i decided to knock out a lot of days in one actual day.
" A picture of somewhere you've been."

this one doesn't seem very fair, because i have gone like no where in my life. it should be "somewhere you want to go" because then i could have an album of a million pictures... but to stay true to the topic,




so i went here, its called american museum of ceramic art. i was officially obsessed the moment i entered. i even wanted to work there, but its in LA so its kinda far. but ya of the places ive gone, this little place made a huge impression on me.

Day 4.

i think i should call it like "time 4" or something like that, since it has been much more than one day since my last post. soooo....

"a habit you wish you didn't have"

well i have a few, but my main one is procrastination. i will literally put something off until the last possible moment. cleaning, papers, homework,waking up and everything else i cant think of the moment. if its on my to do list (i actually don't have one, but figuratively speaking) it will be pushed of as long as possible. while i have many undesirable habits, this is the one that affects my life the most. it sucks.